People who know me know that I am generally a happy person. Upon meeting people, I am smiling, cracking jokes, even making myself the butt of jokes just to make others feel comfortable around me. I work on being a sunshiny person with rose colored lenses. (I love pink!)
So, it is really a challenge for me to share this next post because it asks me to reflect on the types of stories you may not read from me for one reason or another. Here goes:
I have a feeling you will not hear about the times when Diabetes just really gets me down. I’m not talking about, “Oh, I had a bad reading on my meter.” or “That last lancet really hurt!” down…more like Breakfast at Tiffany’s when Holly Golightly describes “The Mean Reds”. I will probably not write about the times, when my optimism, inspiration and hope run slim. Why? It is not really what I am about. I feel no need to bring anyone down with me when I am there. And most times, there just are no words to describe that place I find myself sometimes-even after only 3 years of diagnosis.
Honestly, I believe it is enough to let you know I have those moments of darkness.
And so onward and upward, I will leave you with something that helps me when I just have no words. The words of the famous Charlie Chaplin:
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
you’ll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll see the sun come shining through
for you
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness Although a tear may be ever so near
That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile what’s the use of crying
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you’ll just
Smile
Today’s Prompt:
Click for the Keep it to Yourself – Tuesday 5/12 Link List.
Many of us share lots of aspects of our diabetes lives online for the world to see. What are some of the aspects of diabetes that you choose to keep private from the internet? Or from your family and friends? Why is it important to keep it to yourself? (This is not an attempt to get you out of your comfort zone. There is no need to elaborate or tell personal stories related to these aspects. Simply let us know what kinds of stories we will never hear you tell, and why you won’t tell them.) (Thank you Scott E of Rolling in the D for this topic.)
Cut the B.S. 
6 replies on “Diabetes Blog Week 2015 Day 2: Keep it to Yourself”
And it’s important that you know, we all have those moments – and they suck. But the smiles can make up for the bad moments.
I think we wrote the same blog post. Onward and upward is my motto, too. I like your suggestion of admitting to the darkness, but not giving it a parade. ❤ Thanks for posting.
A little embarrassing but I didn’t know that was Charlie Chaplin, I know that from My Girl 2 (I think) haha
Hey Kelley,
I didn’t know either until it was brought up while I was watching a Michael Jackson documentary…it was one of MJ’s favorite songs.
I’m right there with you!
After 37 years with t1d, you will realize there’s a lot more trouble in the world than managing t1d. At 68, my husband’s friends are coming down with really serious illnesses that have nothing to do with t1d and so are mine. Keep your management of this chronic disease going and work for a cure, better funding for management tools, and better tools. You can do it!