I felt particularly anxious yesterday and could not quite put my pricked finger on why. I even tossed and turned until 2:00am before falling asleep and didnt’ know why. It wasn’t until this morning when I realized the date: June 28th. It’s my Diaversary, meaning it has been 4 years since I woke up in a hospital bed and was asked, “How long have you known you had diabetes?”
For months, I was trying to figure out how I was going to celebrate this day. Life then took over and I shifted my party plans. I thought I would still want to party it up despite the fact that this day snuck up on me. It was surprisingly somber for me, though. Remembering this day 4 years ago took me to a dark, sad, and hopeless place. I seemed to have been brought back to a place that I have fought so hard to keep behind me.
That’s when I reached out to my dia-buddies via text message. Of-course, I true Dia-badass fashion they came through for me. I received virtual hugs, words of encouragement, and suggestions of our now traditional test strip shot. Need a visual? Here you go:
After dinner, my husband took the girls swimming and as I watched my beautiful family happily jumping into the pool, my eyes welled up with tears. “I’m so happy I’m here!!!” I thought to myself. “I’m delighted I get to watch this and be a part of this, all of this!” All the reasons why today is a day to celebrate came to me all at once.
- I get to watch my girls continue to grow into the intelligent, creative, enterprising, and fun young women they are.
- I get to continue to plan trips and plan a kick ass future with my husband, best friend, and hero.
- I get to participate in research studies that help diabetes medicine and technologies move forward.
- I still get to help others with Diabetes or Pre-diabetes by way of this blog, Team Cut the BS’s fundraising efforts, and just by being me.
- I get to watch more Indycar Races and cheer for Charlie and Conor, so that children with diabetes can follow in their sweet and fast footsteps.
- And I get the opportunity to experience much, much more!!!
With a new outlook on today, I took my friends up on their suggestions and poured myself a shot for all the insulin shots I’ve taken since June 28, 2012 (A loosely estimated 5,840 shots, probably more.) Happy Diaversary to me. Cheers.